I’m tired. I am so tired. My sides are aching I am so sore I am so tired. I am sorry. I’m so sorry. I’m going to be sick
All that I want is for you to be okay. I know that I will be okay. I am so worried about you, though. I am so worried about you. I will always care about you. I will always love you. I don’t expect anything of you, though. Not anymore. I want you to be okay. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to tell you the story of us. Thank you for letting me in. Thank you for being all that you have been to me. I will never regret you. I will never regret a second. You were amazing. You are amazing and I love you present tense. I hope that one day you can recognize that. I hope that you will be okay.
please see me
I’M SO FUCKING PISSED AT MYSELF. I WOULD HAVE BEEN FIFTEEN MONTHS CLEAN ON FRIDAY.
All that I can do is move forward. What happened was impulsive and I’m so disappointed in myself and so is everyone else. I feel like such a disappointment in all aspects of my life right now. I can only do so much, though. Everyone tells me that I’m so awful at communicating, but I’m really not. Some people just refuse to listen. And I’ll admit that there are people who are so willing to listen, but I’m so afraid to open up because all I know is people telling me that I’m wrong the second I finish a sentence. I’m so afraid I’ll say the wrong thing. I’ve gotten better, though, and nobody can take that away from me. I’m just so tired. I’m tired of being told I’m wrong and of being treated like a child. I’m tired of this cycle. I’m tired of bitchy girls refusing to move on and let such a wonderful person strive for something better. I’m tired of not knowing. I’m tired of not knowing if it is okay to hold your hand or to kiss your face. I’m missing you. I know that there are things you have to do before we really can be okay. I just hope so much that you can finally break the cycle. Because I love you so much. I care for you so much. I’m just tired. Physically.
Please break the cycle. Please. For you.
Maybe I should go to hell
I’m having the worst anxiety. I just want you. I wish I could sleep